Where exactly did the weekend go; it flew by, almost unnoticed. Although I was not looking forward to today, it was nice to wake up to the sun shining through the window, and I have woke up with a more positive mindset.
One of my goals for today is to reach a minimum of 10,000 steps. Which I am hoping to continue doing for the rest of the week; I walked the long way home this morning, I have also been walking around the garden.
I have realised that the only way I am going to get back on track is to take charge and do something about it.
Last week I asked for some support, but because I am functioning well and we are always on time, I don’t think they believe we need any help. The last few months my Anxiety has been really bad, this weekend it has been unbearable, especially in the evenings. I have experienced Pins and Needles from head to foot, I have had pain in my hands and arms and my heart rate has been elevated.
I don’t want it! I don’t want to keep feeling like this. So, I have to do something about it. No one can do it for me.
The Sun helps, everything feels so much better when the sun is shining. It certainly helps towards the walking goal anyway, although having said that I don’t mind walking in the rain, it just doesn’t have the same impact. I love walking in the Snow, we don’t get much of it here, but when it does snow I make the most of it. Walking in the snow is magical, it feels as though most of the world is calm or sleeping. And the silence, there is nothing else quite like it.
I am currently sat out in the garden, listening to the birds singing and feeling the cool breeze on my face while doing a bit of colouring. ( I have not done any colouring for a while) I needed to take some quiet time for myself, to relax and do the things that I enjoy.
What I really should be doing is some course work, but you know what, that can wait until tomorrow. Today is all about me.